Wednesday, December 17, 2003

...?

Its been a while, I blame finals for it but not much has really gone on down here since this weekend. I think my finals have gone good but only time will tell. I've been really out of it lately, I'm not too sure why but I have some ideas... But when I get there will be little time for me to be out of it. I'll have to work just about 40 hours next week, hopefully the week after it won't be that much. Money would be nice but I don't need it as much as I felt like I use to. The one thing that would be nice owuld be to have some money to get some christmas presents for some people. We'll see how things go though... This is just random ramblings and I don't know when it'll be much more than this. I'm not really in the mood to write or do much but maybe it'll change soon...

Give the Fool a Pen...

Sunday, December 14, 2003

Sled filled days and Sonny Nights

Yes my friends I went sledding tonight! Tonight being Saturday night-Sunday morning. It was awesome! To make things better, theres a huge hill right next to my dorm. There were already kids out there, but only about 4. Stubbs and I got dressed, as if to go out into a nuclear war - we had to be prepared for jack frost! After 1 pair of shorts, 1 wife beater, 2 pairs of pants, 2 t-shirts, 2 pairs of socks, 2 sweaters, 2 gloves, and a hat - I was ready. The tops of rubber totes are also ghetto sleds, who knew? After about 10 mins our buddy Kolski came with an air mattress in hand! Then a ton of kids came out there and we were all having a good time. After a few awesome runs and spills, Anthony and Gowdy showed up and joined the fun. After about 2 hours or so we decided to call it a night. What a crazy night...

Last night was awesome too. We ran into a guy named Sonny. If you want to read about him then check out Anthony's blog, he did him more justice than I could ever do. The link is on the right side of the page. I think meeting him taught me a lot. Sure he looked crazy at first, I was a little taken back by his appearance but the more he talked to more I thought of him. He was a man that was having a ball living his life. No matter the ups and downs you still have to have fun. In the end, what else is there? If you don't enjoy everyday of your life then what are you living for? Meeting him at that very moment, it just seemed a little like fate. Kind of predestined, know what I mean? I just think everything happens for a reason and when life knocked me down, I learned a valuable lesson that helped me stand up again... Well I'm really tired and tomorrow I have a day full of calculus and business essentials! I hope everyone had a good weekend, wish me luck on my finals!

Friday, December 12, 2003

Mi Viejo

This morning I received a call at 6 am from Home. I stumbled out of bed, picked up the phone and went into the hall to talk. I didn't expect to hear what I heard the... It turns out my Grandfather on my dad's side passed away this morning. I was in a tired daze but the news woke me up. My dad is the only one in Mexico right now so I knew that the rest of my family would try to go as soon as they could to be there for him. My mom didn't really want to leave me here but I assured her that I understood why everyone had to leave. I talked to my sister a little bit on the phone but when I said bye to everyone I hung up the phone and I got the worst feeling in my bicep. It was so cramped up and tight... it just felt awkward. I tried to go back to sleep and I couldn't. I just sat and thought about him and all the things hes done for me. Before I knew it, it was time for me to go to my first class. As I was getting dressed I looked at my closet and notice the shirt, the guayabera. My gramps always use to wear them, so in his memory I decided today was a good day to wear it. My family left for Mexico this afternoon and I'm happy that they can be there for my dad. I wish I could've gone but theres this saying that us Mexicans always say, "si dios quere" or If God wants it to be then it'll be/ god willing.

Now I could take this time and try to explain things about my grandfather and tell stories about him but I won't. Hes from a different world, Mexico is really something else and hes a product of his environment, just like everyone else. But I think you can see a part of him in me, we now share the same hair cut haha. We have some of the same shirts. I remember he got me the mariachi hat I have at home. He was an awesome guy who I loved to be around, eat rompope and jello with. I'll always have the memories and I can't ask for much more. He'll be missed by so many people...

Well since the people who read this are the people I think are close to me, I thought I should write about this. Don't feel like you have to say anything to me about it, if you want to then I'd love to hear from you but its ok. As much as this affects me I can't let it stop me from living, I have finals to study for and I have people I care about that I can talk to in case I'm feeling down so everything will be okay.

Thursday, December 11, 2003

Two 2day

This hasn't happened in a while, updating twice in one day... I must be going crazy. But its still early and I'm still conscious and I want to write. Gowdy said something earlier that made me think. He came into the room with Stubbs and mentioned something about me having an identity crisis due to the music I was listening to... to add fuel to the fire Amber mentioned something earlier today about never thinking I would have certain music on my computer that I have. These two statements combined made me think about the image I project. What do people expect from me? So then I thought more about music and this is what I thought:

People must expect me to just listen to rap and why wouldn't they? I mean most of my CDs are rap but do I appear that one dimensional? I love most kinds of music, even if I don't have a CD in that particular genre. The reason I probably dont' have a CD is because I haven't been exposed enough to it to feel the need to buy a CD. But I remember back in the day, hanging out with Andy and Johnny, they exposed me to a lot of different music. They were into the whole punk/skater back in about oh... 5th grade. I was into it back then too, I don't think most people would think of me in that way... Then again, I guess I don't project that too much. I love R&B too and I honestly like some Country that I've heard. I think Country and Rap are similar, although no one sees it this way. I don't know, sometimes I wonder what kind of image I project and I know music plays a big part in my life so it probably speaks for me.. get it, music speaks for me!? But I think music is a big part of anyones life. Music evokes emotions, ideas, it takes us back in time to a place/a feeling that we thought we had forgotten. It makes those places seem like they were yesterday, its great. But does the music I listen to project a false image of what I'm like? I mean I don't think I'm violent, treat women unfairly, or act "thugged out." I joke around about being violent, about doing this or that... but do people actually believe any of it? Do I project the real me? In the end what I thought I stood for will die with me, what people believe I was will live on... so I know I should live my life the way I see fit but should I care a little more about what others think about how I live? Should I try more to get what I believe I am across to people or should I just let those who honestly want to know me find out who the real me is...?

Make sure to check out the update earlier today, I posted a paper if you're interested in reading it...

Song of the Day: "Jesus Walks" by Kanye West


Its Over!

Well its Thursday night, I didn't work out today... I didn't do much of anything today. But what I did do was finish my english paper that I've been putting off all week. I think I'll post it here so following the things I want to talk about here will be my english paper. Its nothing special, I kind of like it but I'm a little biased. If you have any comments on it just IM me or post something in the blog. But first...

At what point do we need to grow up? I don't think I'm all grown up yet. I think I'm mature but with that, I think a big part of being mature is knowing when to be a kid and when to be grown up. I think being able to joke and kid around is a great thing about me. I consider myself to be somewhat funny and I'm pretty easy going about things but I think I'm able to be serious when its needed. Well I just wanted to rant a little about that. Don't let your "inner child" be lost while you grow up. Being able to just sit back and kid is a great thing... Well heres the paper thats been so troublesome lately..



We Can’t Afford Equality

The idea that monetary wealth can be the equalizer between different racial and social classes can be seen in the film 8 Mile and discussed in the poem “Self Conscious” by Kanye West. Therefore, there are various types of financial aid such as welfare offered to minorities and the poor. While it seems that wealth is available to everyone and there are even institutional programs that promote this idea, both 8 Mile and “Self Conscious” reveal that society doesn’t actually want to see true class equality. In addition to this, both examples of the media also show how figures that attempt to and can transcend barriers are belittled, as shown by the portrayal of Papa Doc and the comments of Kanye West.

Among the barriers that separate the different racial and social classes are the “spheres of oppression,” (Mantsios 345) or as Mantsios describes them, the cumulative oppression based on race, class, and sexism in today’s society. These various types of oppression, mainly racism and classism, “distinguish social functions and individual power” (Mantsios 346) limiting what a class can possess and how a certain class should behave in a class structured society. The spheres of oppression have allowed the structured class system to further separate the classes not only by class and race but also by the actions and the power that they are shown to possess. This is evident in 8 Mile, Rabbit is shown to succeed at the rap battles over blacks and he also succeeds in being assimilated into hip hop, a predominantly black culture. Rabbit is also offered a chance to put together a demo for free instead of any of his friends who are all black. Eminem, the actor who portrays Rabbit, also has been able to succeed in the music industry and has capitalized on his race. Whereas most black artists aren’t embraced by a white audience, Eminem has been able to transcend the racial gap and has found a diverse audience that most minorities aren’t able to do. This is due to the fact that the spheres of oppression don’t limit the power whites are suppose to have since the only oppression they face appears to be their social class, while most minorities appear to have to face the accumulative spheres of oppression such as race and class. The example in the film and the reality of Eminem’s life show that the spheres of oppression seem to have a great effect on someone’s life and the chances of succeeding.

In “Self Conscious,” it can be seen that spheres that don’t limit the powers of whites, limit the power that minorities are able to obtain. Kanye West draws this distinction when he states that his racial class will be able to “buy our way out of jail but we can’t buy freedom” because of the oppressive forces that a black male, as well as other minorities, face in today’s structured society. Since the spheres of oppression limit the power and the opportunity one has in life, the notion that minorities have a limited freedom becomes apparent. The fact that minorities can buy their way out of jail gives them the illusion that they can buy anything with money, even their freedom. However, the spheres of oppression limit their lives to the point which limits any freedom they could obtain. This suggests that the structured system in society gives the illusion of freedom to those who can never obtain it. Also, since the structure system doesn’t give true freedom to certain races and classes, the notion of equality seems impossible. However, equality is alluded to with the representation of money in society and the different things someone is able to afford with money.

Monetary wealth is portrayed to be the equalizer for social and racial barriers through the media. Money is depicted as being the sole answer to solve many if not all problems faced by minorities and the poor. In the film 8 Mile, Rabbit and his friends are in the pursuit of becoming rappers but more importantly, becoming rich superstars. Sol George reflects the ideology that money is the equalizer when he states that “we need fine bitches and fat rides” in order to be happy, something that they will only obtain with money. Money is portrayed by the group of friends, as a tool that will elevate their lives from the poverty stricken Detroit, to a life of happiness. This pursuit of money is also exemplified through other forms of entertainment, such as poetry.

In the poem “Self Conscious,” Kanye West notes how blacks believe that money elevates their social standing above other blacks, “then I spent 400 bucks on this, Just to be like ‘nigga you ain’t up on this’.” This quote shows how blacks, along with other minorities, believe that being able to show their monetary wealth elevates them above their social class. These representations of money have invaded pop culture to the point that it is now generally accepted to believe money is the equalizer for racial and social classes. This ideology is not only portrayed through popular culture but also by the government. The government uses such programs as welfare to attempt to provide aid to minorities and the poor in order to help them overcome social and racial barriers in society, “the dislike was racist…they would have to ante up for welfare and Head Start”(DeMott 571). In other words, the dislike for blacks was originally due to racism and in order to atone for this, the government provided various programs to try to help blacks obtain a better life. Although portraying money as the equalizer acknowledges that there are still many barriers in today’s society, the difference in wealth hasn’t improved even with the different programs available.

The distinction between the level of wealth available to the different social and racial classes can be attributed to different barriers implemented by the government throughout history and the marketing of certain assets towards certain classes that still affect the levels of wealth today. There have been “institutional restraints on black property accumulation” (Conley 3) such as the 40 acres and a mule promised to freed slaves but it was rarely given to them. The lack of property accumulation has caused for blacks, as well as other minorities, to focus their monetary wealth on accumulating assets instead of trying to use the wealth they have to obtain more wealth. There have also been laws that have prevented blacks from starting their own businesses by requiring that they play excessive fees. Aside from these barriers placed on attaining asset wealth, there are certain assets that aren’t geared towards certain social and racial classes. Stocks and bonds, an asset that is has been shown to yield a favorable return, is “primarily targeting whites, financial brokers have created in minority communities a cultural bias against investing” (Choudhury 9) in that asset. This has created a social connotation that only whites can invest in certain assets. In 8 Mile, during the discussion outside of Cheddar Bob’s house, DJ Iz suggests that if they had wealth they should invest it in savings bonds and insurance and is ridiculed for this suggestion. Sol George later comments on how he can’t believe DJ Iz is his brother, this shows how there is a white label attached to certain investments that would potentially close the wealth gap between races. However, this also shows that minorities, including blacks, believe that they need material possessions more so than they need stocks, bonds, and other profitable assets.

The idea that blacks believe that they must accumulate material possessions instead of profitable assets can be also be seen in “Self Conscious.” West describes a woman in his poem as wanting “enough money to buy her a few pairs of new airs,” claiming that blacks are more interested in material wealth instead of asset wealth. The interest that blacks have in material wealth is also explained by West, we “floss cuz they degrade us, we tryin’ to buy back our 40 acres,” meaning that blacks choose to appear to have more material wealth because of the historical depreciation towards the value blacks have had throughout history as being cheap slaves. The historical value of black lives has caused today’s black population to become “addicted to retail” according to West. Instead of trying to invest their money in assets that will in turn help close the wealth gap, today’s black population appear to be proving their self worth through their material possessions and their clothes. Not only do blacks, as well as the poor and other minorities, try to prove to themselves that they are worth more than what society shows them to be, such as just 40 acres and a mule, but they also must attempt to accumulate assets that aren’t geared towards them. The different assets that are geared towards different races and classes show the true barrier between the different classes, the asset wealth available to them.

Asset wealth serves as the biggest difference between the social classes; it can be seen in various forms of pop culture, showing that the problem still persists today. Asset wealth consists of “add[ing] up everything you own and subtract[ing] your total amount of outstanding debt,” (Conley 1) not just monetary wealth. Asset wealth also can be described as being able to “capture the persistence of racial inequality in the post-civil rights United States” (Conley 1) and serves the most defining characteristic of the racial and social inequality that permeates society. The difference in asset wealth can be easily seen in 8 Mile, Rabbit not only has his own car that he can give away to Janeane but his mother also gives him a car for his birthday. This may not be seen as much asset wealth but in contrast to his black friends who have nothing, he appears to be much wealthier in terms of assets. In the beginning of the film it is also noted that Rabbit had an apartment with his ex-girlfriend, while all of his black friends are still living at home with their mothers. The contrast between the assets that whites and blacks possess are evident throughout pop culture but also in more personal accounts of the media, such as “Self Conscious.”

Kanye West also notes the difference in assets available to blacks by detailing the lack of assets blacks have and can obtain. West describes the lack of assets available to blacks by drawing a parallel to being able to obtain a car, “couldn’t afford a car, so she named her daughter Allexus.” In contrast to the representation of Rabbit who has had a car to give away to his ex-girlfriend and a car given to him by his mother, blacks are portrayed by West as being able to only dream about obtaining such assets. The lack of having asset wealth also affects the dependence on monetary aid provided by the government, “among the poor, it is a lack of assets that explains the higher propensities of blacks to rely on welfare” (Conley 1). With asset wealth affecting not only popular culture’s perception of racial and social classes and the assistance of financial aid provided by the government it can be seen that the “overall differences in wealth among racial and ethnic groups are generated primarily by the financial assets those groups own” (Choudhury 8). If asset wealth is what determines social standing and “class position determines one’s life chances” (Manstios 337) then it can be seen that asset wealth has a vast impact on someone’s life. The differences in asset wealth are the main differences that not only differentiate the social classes but it also perpetuates the social classes, while the portrayals of those who don’t conform to the structured society also keep people from transcending the barriers if possible.

Society and the media belittle those who appear to succeed in overcoming social and racial barriers. During the final rap battle in 8 Mile, Rabbit faces Papa Doc and exploits the fact that Papa Doc comes from a middle class family. Rabbit raps that Papa Doc isn’t an MC because he went to a private school and his real name is Clarence. In addition to this, Rabbit also claims that Papa Doc’s parents have a good marriage. Papa Doc is then considered to be “fake” because he hasn’t faced the struggles that are associated with the poor social class and he is described to be “white.” Not only is Papa Doc laughed at by his peers but it is assumed that he will lose respect not only from his own peers but also from the audience that is viewing the film. This showcases how the media has warped the perception that is associated with people who appear to have transcending a social class. In addition to this, Kanye West seems to reinforce this idea when he states that “even when I’m in my Benz, I’m still a nigga in a coupe,” meaning that even if he transcends the wealth barrier, he will still have to face racial barriers. West’s personal experience with attaining a monetary wealth and transcending the social barrier seem to reflect society’s sentiment towards people who can overcome barriers, they are unwelcome. The media and society has made the lower class and minority achievers appear to be comedic relief or considered fake in order to discourage people from attempting to move up the social ladder. The racist comments West faces and the respect Papa Doc losses appears to support the idea that society doesn’t want us to overcome racial and social barriers.

The Media and society appear to be trying to destroy the barriers between the racial and social classes, whites are shown to be friends with blacks and financial aid is offered to the poor whether they are minorities or not; however, on further inspection it appears that society and the media are perpetuating the rigid class system in society. Monetary wealth is emphasized over asset wealth and there appears to still be some institutional barriers that prevent minorities from accumulating any kind of wealth, such as strict loan policies applied to certain communities. In addition to this, society and the media seem to portray people who transcend social barriers to be “fake” or not to be respected. With all this in mind it seems as if society and the media in general would much rather keep the strict class system that is present in society instead of trying to bridge the gap between any classes. This idea is also shared by some minorities including West, “drug dealer buy jordans, crack head buy crack and the white man get paid offa all of that.” This shows that the drug dealer and the crack head both help those at the top of the social ladder, in this case whites. The idea that the majority, or whites, profit off of the social classes that exist explains why society has not attempted to destroy the social barriers that still exist today.

Tuesday, December 09, 2003

This is my Nindo!

Wow, instead of working on a final paper I'm sitting here bloggin... why is that? Well its because Anthony's blog has inspired me to blog about love too... But you should definitely check his out, its awesome and I don't know of anyone who states their ideas so nicely. So he wrote about love... I write about the people I love but I don't think I've ever written about love in general... oh wait yeah I have but its time to revise it!

What do I think love is? My definition of it has changed throughout the years... I once thought about it as something that blinds you and makes you do dumb things. It doesn't allow you to see the truth, instead you see what your heart tells you to see... Soon after, I began to hate it. I thought it was a crippling affliction that limits those struck with it. I thought it made me weak, it made me care too much about some who obviously didn't care about me... That lasted for a while, I thought I couldn't let myself catch feelings for another and I don't think I did. I thought any emotion that made me feel this defenseless wasn't worth feeling. If I could numb the pain that I felt from it then everything would be okay wouldn't it? Not so much... when you numb the pain you numb everything and its not the best feeling in the world... But then things seemed to get better and I'm at the point where I feel right now: Love is a double edged sword that can be both good and bad but without each hand in hand how can we know what is good and what is bad? Love is feeling that you would do anything to protect that person no matter what. Its putting everything on the line in order to make sure they're ok and happy. Its scary to put someone else before yourself tho, I mean knowing that you'd sacrifice so much for them even though you might feel sad or experience pain? I don't know, its something that we must feel though, once you feel it... its inspiring, its great, its hard... its all of the above. I think love being just one word doesn't do it justice, love is actions it isn't simple words that can be strung together using this or any language. The language of love can be translated because its actions that make up the language not words. Love is more than a feeling, its doing. I know when we're young, at least me, we become infatuated with someone. We think so highly of them, we always think about being with them, but its never anything more than what we think about in our heads. When we begin to speak with our hands, when we show the love... ahh its just something great I think.

I also think love is being able to pick up whenever/where ever. Those I love, those I've been through deep shit with, I can be gone for a minute and come back like nothing. The best example I have of this is my relationship with wayne. Thats my boy, I love him to death but we've been through hell and back together. There was a time we barely talked for about a year, it was little things on the low but overall we barely hung out or spoke to one another. But when we needed each other we were there for one another, no questions asked. Thats what love is to me. Love is being able to let the other person grow and not be afraid of losing them. Its being able to let them be on there own but in the end you know the love you have for each other will always be there and that'll never change. Its knowing that it'll hurt not seeing/talking to them but they have to do what they have to do. I think after that I kinda realized to not be so afraid of letting go with different relationships. It also made leaving home easier, I know that the love there will never change and its made it much easier to be able to start my life again in a way.

Obviously the love between someone like wayne and the love I feel for a lady are going to be different. But I think overall, the basic structure of love will be the same. If I say I have love for you, then this applies to you. Its just the actions, the sacrifice, and the determination to see you happy that makes love what it is, at least to me. Since love is all of these things, I think its crucial that the love goes both ways. So if I have love for you, hopefully you have love for me but its useless if you don't show it so show it and sign the guestbook!!


Monday, December 08, 2003

Its been too long since I last updated. Theres been a lot of stuff thats came and went... I'll blame it on my brother tho - he got me hooked on Naruto and I can't stop watching it. Well since I last updated what has happened? Hmmm... I'll have to rewind the tape, not record over it!

Sunday
Another morning work out, I could get use to them. Stubbs was really tired/ill and spent the day sleeping, so I left my room and ended up at Foster most of the day, I didn't want to wake the sleeping giant. Good things happen when M&Ms are on sale at Target, right Amber? haha... Then came McDonald's, the grand explanation, and the walk/ride home.

Saturday
Morning work out, it was half assed but after doing leg press I feel like I only have half an ass, damn this thing hurts. Well There was an IU basketball game to go to. The Latina scored some free tickets since she dressed up nice and I finally got ot go to an IU event. These seats were terrible but hey, we worked with what we had and I had fun. Later that day I went to the mall and ran into a kid from the summer who hooked me up majorly with a discount on a winter hat, thanks Nick. I'm pretty sure thats his name... but a few coffee beans and car rides later I found myself in my dorm with the usual - stubbs and two strange girls... wait a minute thats not the usual at all. Well one left, rightfully so - she had to console a cheating neighbor. The other one well... she was quite fond of stubbs and I was quite fond of sleeping. Needless to say, we didn't get what we wanted! haha...

Friday
Only had one class, my Naruto obsession began, and Anthony had his Nutcracker performance. Throw in some Chinese buffet, cake baking, and talking till 4 am and what do you get? Another awesome night with awesome people, the gang.

Well thats been the past few days in a nutshell. I know I've been neglecting this thing like crazy but this week is pretty light for me so I should be hooking it up with some good updates. Well thats it for right now, later tonight I'll probably sit down and write more so come back and check it out!

Wednesday, December 03, 2003

I Enter Thru Your Mind & Enter the Back of Your Soul

Its been a while since I sat down and wrote a real entry but its time to pick up the digital pen and turn this binary code into gold. Things over Thanksgiving way had a way of working out, I got to see almost everyone I wanted to at least for some amount of time. It would've been nice to see my boy X but I hear he's in the "crooked letter" state, Mississippi, preparing to go to school down there next semester. Other than that, I at least touched base with everyone and that's basically what I wanted to do. I just took 3 tests today and turned in the rough draft of my final english paper. This is going to be crazy, I feel like so much weight has been lifted from my shoulders and I can finally breathe... A lot happened over Thanksgiving break and you probably know about it already so I won't restate it but I've been thinking about a lot lately...

Some events over the break shook some friends of mine, got them thinking about the bigger picture. Well I have to say, I've had a few run ins with things that have made me sit back and think about life. I don't know, I've thought about what life means and things like that on numerous occasions. Life is what you make it, the meaning of life is what you want it to be. In the times when I think about things like that I think more about those around me than myself. I mean I've lived my life the way I see fit but I just hope those around me can live their lives the way they want, exactly the way they want. I don't want to sound like an unselfish person or anything because I'm selfish as hell but I try to put others before me. I just hope everyone can see what I do I do because I love 'em and don't take anything the wrong way...

I don't think I'm going to be able to go to Mexico this year with the family, I know I know - people would give anything to go to Mexico? Well all there is to say is I talked to my 'rents about it and what's done is done. But I'm dealing with this a little harder than I thought I would... I mean I'll be away from my family for how many weeks...? But I've always recognized that my fam doesn't have the best relationships but recently I've come to appreciate them a lot more. Being away has made me realize things... my dad and I have had a lot of tension in our relationship, things went down that probably shouldn't have. He's my pops tho and I realize now that he's been so instrumental in who I am. I see him in my eyes every day that passes by and as much bad as he is good, he's human like the rest of us - I'm proud he instilled certain things in me. He made me proud of everything I do, he's made me feel like I have to protect mine and watch out for everyone I love as much as I can. The way I try to make all those around me happy is because of you dad, I don't think he'll ever know how proud I am to be his son... Then there's my moms and my sister. I get in arguments with both of them on a daily basis, I guess I get my willingness to say anything to matter what from them. They've taught me to respect women as much as I do, they've taught me a woman's worth. Then there's my bro, what a character. He's always been willing to knock me on my ass and teach me to be humble. Whenever I get out of line he always had a way of letting me know, whether it be with words or actions. He's taught me to take no shit and to stand up for mine. He's also given me the wit and humor I have, which has a way of getting me into shit on occasion but I can't picture myself with out it. He's had the biggest impact on my life, whether he knows it or not....

Now to speak my mind on the music industry, once again. Certain things bother me, like the price of CDs. Isn't it a little crazy when new DVD movies cost as much as old CDs? I mean, a lot more money goes into making a movie compared to making a CD. Then there's the actual DVD disc, its a lot more expensive than a damn CD. So who makes all the money? It sure isn't your favorite artist. Sure some have publishing rights to their own stuff and they get royalty checks but honestly its the company. The artists can't do anything unless they get the go ahead by the suits. But there are certain artists that everyone respects and would never "steal" from so don't let my ramblings get to you, just something to think about.

Well since everyone seems to be looking for a catch phrase I decided I'd come up with one of my own. I can't take credit for it tho, since its something Stubbs said just slightly altered. Here are some variations: "Coming from the Top of the Bottom" - "I'll see you around the top of the bottom" - that's about all I have right now. Let me know what you think about it in the guestbook and whether I should keep one of them or not.

Song of the Day: "Hypnotic" by Memphis Bleek ft Jay-Z & Beanie Sigel - I can't remember the last time I liked a song this much this fast after hearing it for the first time.


Tuesday, December 02, 2003

I have so much to do that I don't think there will be an update until wednesday evening but I do have a lot to say so it should be good. Check back then, maybe I'll write down some bars while I'm at it.